it feels so weird. I feel like we've been together so much longer than three weeks. probably because we were really close a little more than a year ago and we already know each other so well. we just needed time to get comfortable with the idea of actually being together.

I feel myself being so patient for him it's weird. did I really change that much from last year? I'm so glad he and I both matured enough to handle a relationship with each other. I wonder if there will ever be a day that we'll be able to show each other off. right now, neither of us wants it public yet though. hmm, we'll see.

maybe it's 'cause I'm patient, or I'm really low-maintenance, but he keeps on surprising me. he's been starting pretty much every conversation we've had for the past few days. he's more tender with his goodnights (hell he wrote me a poem the other time to say goodnight. he said he only wrote the "good night, my love" part because it fit with the rhythm of the poem. oh psh.) he subtly calls me attractive or amazing, very very subtly, but I love that. I love that everything we need to say is exchanged in our sly smiles. Or in the way he quietly takes my hand or squeezes my arm or I could go on and on.

I've been so excited, gah. but I'm looking to a lonely summer. well this week has been amazing 'cause we've been Skyping all night but on sunday we both leave for camp... we'll have a few days together in July, but then I leave again. I'll miss him so much. but I'll be okay.