Man, I'm loving September. Summer vacation was great for me. It went by really quickly, but it did do a good job of letting me escape all my crap for a while and really let myself enjoy my summer. And enjoy it I did. I made tons of new friends and I really felt like I let loose. And after all that, my heart felt so much lighter. The past doesn't bother me much anymore. And I really hope he can put it behind him too. I sense that he has, since our conversations are coming much more easily now. I still tread carefully because I can't say something out of line, but we aren't so uptight with each other anymore.

Right now, I really don't know what my feelings about you are. Sometimes I feel like I still like you a lot - there's a lot in you to admire. Other times... I feel almost nothing. Maybe it's 'cause I've been so chill about it that it doesn't really matter anymore. I don't exactly want to fall into a boring rut where there's no life at all. But otherwise, I'm glad it's a bit more peaceful. For instance, today felt great. At first you were avoiding me, but then we loosened up... And I really can't ask for anything else from you. You will be you, and that won't change. But I'm glad that I don't have to worry anymore. Once I stopped fretting over every little thing, everything has gotten so much better. You hurt me a lot before, but maybe I really did need it.

I feel like I'm the only one that really deep down believes that you're a great person. I know Dani does, but she doesn't care for you in the same way I do. She can't see you in the same way I do. I may not have any romantic intention and try to keep my attraction on the down-low, I do still carry a certain bit of affection that others won't have. I may never understand you, but I do know you better than most, or I'd like to believe. Because of this, I do think I can infer things about you from all that I have seen. In my eyes, you're a strong, intelligent young man that possesses many qualities I wish I could have. I have always admired you with the utmost respect. Maybe I'm bad at showing that and tend to just provoke you instead, but I think that's the game we like to play. It's fun, and it's a way to get a response from you. And plus, when you're loosened up, our little fights just feel fun. We get to laugh about it, and I'll tease you afterward. And you know what? All the injuries are worth it.

At this point, I don't really have analyze so much stuff anymore, and my life is less crazy. I just get to appreciate stuff. All the random things you do, that we do together. The memories, they just feel good now. I was just so full of sadness before... Letting go feels good when you can finally gather up the strength to do it. Now, instead of looking back at the past in sadness, I can just laugh about it all.

So if anything, thanks. You have opened my eyes to so many new perspectives, and not just because of this matter. I really do care about you, and I wish you could trust me enough to really let me in, but that's asking a bit much. Nevertheless, I do love you and wish you all the best. You're going to be very successful in the future and I do think you'll be a great man. Just hope someday you'll remember me as a girl whose heart you have touched forever.